My friends have recently made a list of guys they could see me dating at school. It consists of six junior and senior boys that go to my school. But first, here's my list of qualities in the ideal guy:

1. He must have good manners- I like guys that are a little bit old fashioned. I like it when they open doors for me and pull my chair out for me. I'm not exactly a feminist. But, anyways, I like guys that are polite. Please and thank you go a long way in my book.

2. He must dress nicely- Okay, yes, I am into fashion. I don't care if a guy has all name brand stuff or has whatever the latest trend is. I just want him to look nice. And I LOVE the preppy/nerdy look. Clothes aren't everything, but I do think the way you dress says a lot about who you are as a person.

3. He must be okay with the color pink- Okay, I know, this sounds crazy. But, there is more of a meaning here than just the color. I'm the president of the Pink Ribbon Club at my school, and pink is a big part of my life. If he's not okay with that, I'm not okay with him

Now, before we get to naming names here, I'm just going to use nicknames. I don't think it's right to put their names out there on the internet without their permission. So, here we go!

1. Superman- I decided to call him Superman because during Spirit Week he dressed up in a Superman costume, and it just seems perfect. My friends decided I should date him because we both have weird last names. So, this guy definitely has good manners. He's very polite. He has fairly good style. He always matches, and he looks good. I'm not too sure how he feels on the whole pink issue, but that's at the bottom of the list. He's really cute, and very smart, but I don't know him very well. So, it could be hard to get something going here.

2. The 'Stache- Obviously, I'm calling him 'Stache because he has a moustache. My friends picked him because he happened to walk by. Anyways, his manners are sketchy. He can be very polite...when he feels like it. On the other hand, he can be rude and sexist, which is not cool. However, he does have good style. And he has a grandmother who had breast cancer, so he's cool with the whole pink issue. He's also very smart. But, I'm still not feelin' it.

3. Ninja- I'm going to call the third guy Ninja because he's Korean and he does martial arts. My friends put him on the list because he walked up, and actually ended up sitting with us, finishing up the list. His manners...eh, I'm not too sure. He does have very good style. The whole pink thing? Who knows. He's a friend of a friend, and we've been talking a bit more this year. He's smart and all, but another guy that I'm just not feeling.

4. Comedian- The fourth guy on the list is going to be Comedian because he's the class clown. He's very polite, and he dresses all right, but he ALWAYS gives me a hard time about pink ribbon stuff. I believe he's really smart, but he has a very low sense of ambition, which I don't like. I'm friends with him, but we were a lot closer last year. Anyways, he dated one of my friends, and I'm just not gonna go there.

5. Golfer- I'm calling this guy Golfer because he golfs. He has excellent manners. He needs A LOT of help in the fashion department. Sportswear is not okay for everyday. And I'm not sure about the pink thing. He's smart, which I like. His family and my family are members of the same country club, and he's Catholic like me, so he totally understands the world I grew up in. And my mother adores him. But, I'm not sure I'm feeling it. We've been friends since seventh grade, and he's a super nice guy, but I'm just not sure I feel a spark with him. I could see us dating, and staying together just because it would work, but there would never be love or passion.

6. Beckham- For the last guy on my list, I'm going to call him Beckham, because he's a star soccer player. His manners are all right. There is definitely room for improvement there. He dresses well, and he's definitely into the whole pink thing. He works as a busboy at the country club that my family belongs to, and he totally schmoozes my mother. He is incredibly good looking, and really smart. I've pretty much had an on-again off-again crush on him since the tenth grade. Have you ever felt a connection with someone that you just can't shake? I feel that with him. I don't want to try and predict the future, or even try and get my hopes up, but I just can't get rid of this feeling that something is going to happen between us at some point, even if it's just friendship. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens here.

So, some of my blog entries will now be me reporting to you lovely people about my adventures with these boys on my list. So, wish me luck!

So, I decided today that I want to try to start blogging more after a conversation with my dear friend, Hillary. She thinks the things that happen in my life are funny, so I thought I'd share them with the rest of you. :)

Let's start with something recent. I've been having phone issues. I got a Blackberry Curve, which I loved. But, the guy who sold it to us lied and said that it wouldn't make our bill go up. Well, turns out it would be an extra $30 a month. My dad pretty much had not only a cow, but the rest of the animals in the barn, too. After two weeks of negotiations with Verizon, I had to give up my phone for a different one.

I wasn't happy about this. At all. But, life has a funny way of working out. So, about a week ago, my mother and I ventured into the Verizon store to do the grand switcheroo. I'm upset at my dad for getting so mad at me about the phone. My mom is lecturing me and saying I'm such a brat. Life pretty much sucked for me. Then, my luck turned around: the guy helping us was REALLY CUTE.

Oh, the cute Verizon store guy. Let's call him "Ethan". Since my phone was free from the earlier mix up, they needed to put in all these codes to get the contract to print out the right way, and it wasn't going smoothly. So, Ethan had to make quite a few calls to the Verizon headquarters to get it all right. We ended up being there for almost three hours. So, naturally, we started chatting.

I had no idea that he was 19, so I was just acting normal. Honestly, I'm usually not the girl that's getting checked out. But after we left, my mom informed me that he was asking her all these questions about me.

I got him a Starbucks during this whole escapade. We talked almost the entire time. He was 19, he had graduated from one of the public schools in the same town as my private school, he played in a band at a church on Sundays, he's attending the local art institute and is studying to be a web designer.

I'm pretty much smitten. The past week I've been pretty much stalking him at work, trying to get up the nerve to go and say, "Hi." I won't even go into details about what I did exactly on Friday, since you'll all just laugh your butts off at the fact that I decided it was a sign from God that he drives a Ford.

Anyways, hope you enjoy my blog!

I'm sure you've heard that saying, "Shoot for the moon because even if you miss, you'll land among the stars." Well, what happens if you shoot for the moon, but you dive headfirst back down to earth?

All my experiences with love have been tainted. It's never worked out. I finally took some advice from a friend of mine and sat down and figured out what went wrong with those guys. And that really helped me.

For about a week I was at a good place. I felt confident enough to try and start something with a guy who's caught my eye. Tonight is a totally different story.

Sometimes I feel like I'll never get the fairy tale ending I want so badly. I feel like I'm never going to find that one guy who believes I'm as special as my friends keep insisting I am. There's no way I'm that great if nothing ever works out.

And now I feel like such a loser. I'm a high school senior who's never had a real "official" relationship, who's sitting here pouring her heart out to strangers because no one she knows in real life would understand it.